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# Apeshit 4
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- Published: 2026-08-22T17:43:51.000Z
- Updated: 2026-08-22T17:43:51.000Z
- Author: David S Kilday

Heterosexuality 4 David Santin Kilday DSK Copyright 2026 As a man, I have never really questioned my own heterosexuality. The only time I may have appeared to publicly question my heterosexuality was in a short story I published in Duke's Archive where a character imagined kissing a blond man. This scene was the result of mental control. In fact, it may have been my girlfriend who had an interest in kissing a blond man because I never did. Like many victims of mental control by their enemies, I was made to appear homosexual although I was incontrovertibly and enthusiastically heterosexual, and only heterosexual, in my teens and twenties. I presently have been celibate for 29 years and regard sex as part of a naive youth. Students, beware the willing ones, they are often operatives of your enemies. Every man of fortune and opinions has enemies. Every lawman draws hits from the criminal element. Why, presently, would I want to pollute the sanctity of my mind and the incorruptible detachment of my celibacy, with unwanted sex, the base pleasure of vulgarians. Am I about to come into a fortune so vast, the thieves and whores are circling like carrion who will never be fed with anything but specification 1 litigation whose civil judgements they will never be able to afford and whose punishments they will never be able to endure? Personally, I will never break the law. I will never gamble. I will never marry. I will never have children. Because of these four planks in my personel code, I will never fail. I am a virile, heterosexual man. I bet I could still pleasure a pussy daily but that's not my priority presently. The men who’ve raped me (as their convictions show and will show)--thank God, and my insurance, out of time–are trying to get their rape charges reduced to consentual sex, when I never would willingly have sex with a man. Torture victims want the live of their torture victims, rapists want the forgiveness of their rape victims. I will never forgive these buttfucking sodomists who raped me out of time and thought they'd get away with it. Were I a judge, I'd sentence them to Holy Hell. Do you understand the world and I think homosexuality is an abnormal perversion, a sign of sickness not health. Homosexuals are security risks and prone to crime. Homosexuals are never hired by the NSA. Homosexuals are unwelcome in any society but their own. I was made to seem a misogynist although I am a principled Feminist who advocates the ratification of the E.R.A., equal pay for women, the legal right to an abortion, and the primacy of female pleasure. Men don't forget they take longer than we do to heat up. Prepare the portal. Prime the pussy until it drips. I was made to seem racist when I advocate for Civil Rights. While I am conscious of using the n-word only thrice in my life. I tortured myself about it because racism is against my core principals. One of my core principals is to celebrate new knowledge and the exploration of different cultures and ethnicities. Everyone is different. America is a diverse union of states. We should celebrate our immigrant histories and our diversity. In a few short decades, the US will be a minority majority union and we can leave the rule of white, male racist, buttfuckers behind for good We should celebrate our unique individualities, and reject all mentalities of the herd. Nietzsche's superman was not a dictator, who the herd obeyed, but a stand out, distinct, and in opposition to the herd. Only in his opposition to the herd, was he a hero. I am told that of these three n-word instances, every one was ruled to be the result of mental control by my enemies who operated me to my apparent disadvantage, but long term gain, like a puppet. I was made to seem anti-Semitic when one of my formative texts is the Old Testament in which I have read through into The Book of Ezekiel. I have read all of the New Testament except for the final book, The Book of Revelations, which I am saving for a special occasion. I am heavily influenced by The Frankfurt School. I consider myself a Zionist. The Jewish homeland is essential to a people afflicted by a history of pogroms and the horrors of the Holocaust. I don't believe Ukrainians are Nazis but support their resistance to invasion because resistance to invasion is the central tenet of world order. I respect the Russians, who have their own brand of Manifest Destiny and want their former grain fields back because many Russians are starving. The cost to Russia is high. The last I read, Russia had already lost 750,000 people to death on the Western Front with Ukraine. In Russia, they circulate their dissidents into death-by-drone warfare. How many dissidents are left in the war-sick Russia of today. To remark on the Palestinians. They deserve our sympathy. 75,000 Palestinians have been killed in the Gaza Strip. 80% of Gaza’s buildings have been damaged. Recall the UN’s support for the regulation of warfare to include the prohibition of targeting civilian buildings. This is a good idea with worldwide support, but it was vetoed in the UN by, I guess, warmongering powers who seek to profit from war. Warfare on this planet, considering even the tentacles of the octopus, only amounts to \~4% of the global economy. A future free of war is possible. Peace sells. Make love, not war. I have always self-identified as straight. I dated several women, during my youth, and have enjoyed the sex act with a woman over 1,000 times.I have never had group sex. I have never had sex with a man and never would. Like a bull, I was taught to lick the pussy for foreplay, focus on the clitoris until the vulva enlarges fully, condom the cock, and then fuck in the pussy until a shared orgasm. My record was 120 minutes, bone in pussy, with a willing woman, post-foreplay. I had a youth and the girlfriends of my youth, sheer delights. I have never had anal sex. I once tried it with a former steady after a Phish concert, when we thought we'd try it. I bounced, was shamed, and never tried anal sex again. Can't really imagine why you'd want to fuck a shithole, really, but the posteriors of women sometimes intrigue me. Women do know how to present themselves to best effect. The posteriors of men, imagined sexually, are repellant and repulsive as are all men who come on to me. Of course, I have never had sex with a man. I find the notion of gay sex repulsive and abnormal. Gay fashion, I want nothing to do with you. Who fraudently validated the intellectual property theft from a great, heterosexual author and attributed his writing to a group of evil fags? I rejected homosexuality long ago. In middle school, my parents set up a sleep over with an acquaintance I didn't like much from soccer team. That night he exposed his dick to me. I rejected him and called my parents. My parents picked me up and brought me home and I never spoke to that vain pervert ever again. I self-identify as heterosexual, straight, and always have. Even when I wrote that silly Archive story of my youth, I was in the middle of a three year stint boning a steady girlfriend who always appeared at my bedside at night when I was away at school. While I have explicitly stated to every woman I have ever really dated, I don't want marriage and I don't want children, it is only because as a man I love women and would never want to live with just one. In fact, I prefer to live alone. Anyone in my quarters besides me is unwelcome and always has been. Two is a crowd. Books are more interesting than people and human society mostly a waste of time. No one has interested me mentally since I left school in 1998 although I am devoted to my difficult parents. My mother is a great reader. I learned to love books from her. I despise the invisible perverts in my life and always have. If they claim they are friends of mine they are liars and frauds. I have zero friends, and I want none. I have allies, not friends. Spare me rotter melodrama and simpleton sentiment. Why would I want to know you? I don't repeat my mistakes. I hope to date women more in the future when I have more money and when I am better situated. When my ship comes in, you'll find me angling alone, at hotel bars of propriety as adults of civility do. I sympathize with you dirty thirties but your hormonal problems are your own, I don't plan to date pre-menopausal women. Save your twat and twaddle and this rotten society's fluff and stuff for your grand illusions, the life of the mind is the only life worth living and seduction a question of intelligence and mind before body. You loathsome cocksuckers who afflict me, I have this to say to you, your attentions are not wanted, were never wanted, and if you've come on to me like an over-ardent cur, I will never let you into my life and I will prosecute you to the fullest extent of the law. Remember, in this world, three things are absolutely condemned, despised, and loathed: homosexuality, fraud, and over-ardent curs. In the universe, this shitty, little, ugly-jungle-love, apeshit warworld, with its tiny economy, is viewed as low-tech, barbaric, and uncivilized. Which do you prefer, barbarism or civilization? Only rude oafs prefer barbarism. We live in a civilization of laws and your evidential barbarity will be your downfall. Of course, on the subject of homophobia, not all homosexual males play illegal rape dominance games during sex. Poorly adjusted homosexuals who rape need therapy but society can afford prison for these perverte. According to Ohio law, sex is only legal between two people when it is consentual. Consent means mutually agreed upon according to Ohio law. To be clear, I have never given my consent to have sex with a man. In the time frame of my bubble, I haven't had sex with a woman since I bid a fond farewell to my girlfriend in graduate school in 1997\. I have never experienced any violence in my adult life, nor have I experienced rape. I have only experienced death once, a heroin overdose which scared me straight. I have been clean of illegal drugs for twenty five years and have lived the life of a law abiding citizen. I even drive the speed limit. Since my death, I have had very real reasons to oppose drug gangs here in Cincinnati who cross the line when they deal to kids. While I publicly advocate legal Ohio dispensary marijuana and use it medicinally, I must, through all the complications of the law, it is proven legal in Ohio for first medical patients and then all adult Ohioans to use at home. You may not like it but its legality here is proven and incontrovertible. As long as you get it at an Ohio government dispensary and use it legally, you need fear no prosecution. There are well adjusted gay people who only have sex with each other according to mutual consent law which means these days, receiving verbal permission for every stage in sex. Many homosexuals don't rape. These homosexuals, for their legality, deserve your sympathy and respect. I should say, I have never had consentual sex with a woman since 1997 although I have heard woman have raped me and I am a victim of sexual exploitation between time. To be clear, I am very comfortable with my personality and think you rude if you think you can change a Total Solitary like me. I am comfortable alone. I am an intellect who devotes himself to writing, researching, reading, and thought. I am self educating and my field of knowledge continues to grow daily. I was an established Total Solitary by 10 years old. It is the ideal personality for scholarship. It is also the personality you find in an honest writer.